What’s the point?

I seem to care about politics. I ask what party policies are. I vote. I joined a political party. I campaign, I tell other people what is happening. I write to my MP. When that doesn’t work I protest. I write about it all here. But at the end of it all, after two years of this disgusting inhuman government, after so much effort, all the bad things I’ve been shouting about happen anyway. The bills go through. Maybe a tiny fraction less bad than they would have been without the input of campaigners.

What’s the point? What’s the point of caring? I wish I didn’t care. I wish I could just stop worrying about it and ignore all the shit until it affects me personally, just like all the other shitty selfish humans beings out there. All the pathetic people cocooned in their bubble of mindless TV and expensive possessions bought on credit. The ones who won’t care until five or ten years later when they can’t get support while they are sick, and they have to wait an extra year for treatment because their hospital is busy with paying patients, and the treatment is useless when they get it because all the money went on shareholder profits. When the schools are all business-owned academies and focussed on turning out brainwashed corporate drones. When only the rich can afford to go to university, and therefore to get any jobs with power. When every road is either a toll road or a beaten up dirt track. When the police won’t help you because they’re busy investigating what their private owners have decided is a higher priority, or beating up anyone who dares to protest. When claiming job seekers allowance means becoming the property of some private company, who sell you to some other private company to do hard work for next to no income.

Why the fuck should I care then? Most of the population haven’t even noticed, and now that it’s all going through, AFTER we’ve been protesting for more than a year, THEN some of them might go out and protest? “It worked for the poll tax” people say. Yes, people protested because they were charged money! You think they even know what’s going on until their dad fails to get surgery in time and dies?

I want out. I want to stop bloody caring. I want a lobotomy, or some mind-killing drugs. Something. Anything. Because all those people are shit and they deserve what they’re about to get and I wish that meant nothing to me.

 

Author: Latentexistence

The world is broken and I can't fix it because I am broken. I can, however, rant about it all and this is where I do that when I can get my thoughts together. Most of the time you'll find my words on Twitter rather than here though. I sometimes write for Where's The Benefit too.

12 thoughts on “What’s the point?”

  1. Wish I could offer a quick cause for hope. Today I can’t. 

    I want you to keep posting and campaigning, but that’s for  a selfish reason – you sometimes goad me into action, and you make me feel less alone in my frustration.  

    But I can see your point. 

    Half a million people petitioned the lords about the risk register. Sounds a lot, but in 2007 over a million signed an online petition about road pricing http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/6349027.stm ..because, y’know, you’ve got to get your priorities right. 

    Makes me feel like giving up

  2. I thought I was the only person that felt that way! It’s very frustrating caring so much when most people don’t give a shit until something happens directly to them first…. I call that SELFISH!!!

  3. Just to let you know. you are not alone, you’ve read my thoughts exactly and put them into words. This evil, greedy, arrogant government will be gloating right now and with those attributes alone, for sure, will bring about their downfall so try not to be too down hearted. There are 1000’s of decent like minded folk out there and they will waken up but at the moment I think the jubilee & olympics are getting in the way. Why else would this nasty shower of brown stuff be pushing stuff through at a rate of knots but they’ll get their comeuppance, I’m sure. Best Wishes, keep up the good work and don’t let the bastards grind you down.

  4. I know how you feel. It all feels so pointless. I feel like I’m screaming into the wind and no one can hear me. It’s broken my heart how this country is being sold to the highest bidder all so the rich can pay even less tax. It’s inhumane what the ConDems have done and continue to do.

  5. Sometimes I just look around at people glibly accepting the huge changes which if they are not already, soon will be affecting them personally and I wonder the same…

  6. The fact that you do care makes you so important.  PLEASE, keep on doing what you’re doing and making your voice heard.

  7. If you are anything like me, you congenitally cannot, not care! The anger is what keeps me going. ‘Cos I can’t remember any Tory landslide!

  8. Spot on, Stephen, clearly a lot of us feel the same.  I don’t think I’ve quite recovered from emailing loads of stupid LibDem Lords before the WRB, just to see them sheep-like follow the Tories. And now, the NHS….. I wish people in the UK took a leaf out of the French’s book and took to the streets a lot more, but it just doesnt seem to be the British way, just grumble a bit and have a cup of tea.
    Also, of course, we have these really crap “newspapers” like the Express, Sun and so on, and I suppose for a lot of people, if that’s what their mum and dad read, maybe they just go on doing the same,,,,don’t know what the answer is, but I hope you feel a bit less despairing in due course, and thank you for writing.  By the way I’ve got ME too, way back from the 1980’s, so I sympathise..
    Here’s something to cheer you up!

    http://intensiveactivity.wordpress.com/2012/03/23/emma-harrison-cbe-prepares-for-jail/#more-2586

  9. “Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.” Dale Carneige

    You are not alone, I often feel the way you describe. But please keep  on doing what you are do.
    Yes it hurts, yes it is frustrating, yes it is unjust, yes it makes you swear, yell and sometimes despair …..but how can you turn away when you see what we see?  You can’t…..we can only live our passion, we can only carry on caring because that is who we are…..to do nothing, to turn a way would not stop us from feeling but it might make us feel more helpless, make us  die a bit inside. 

    Freedom, justice and equality has always been worth fighting for …has there ever been any greater calling? 

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